As most of you know, last Wednesday, the 14th was my 31st Birthday. Maybe I’m weird, but I was actually pretty excited about my birthday because truthfully… 30 was the best year of my entire life. Hands down. No contest. So 31? Holy crap… what awesomeness would it bring!?
Days before my birthday, I didn’t yet have any real expectations. Honestly, I didn’t even have any birthday plans! But the day unfolded with some ups and downs (mostly ups) and I think I had a nice day.
I Made my own (Cup)Cakes
Jeremy went to the store and returned home with 2 types of cake and frosting for me to choose from – Red Velvet, or Strawberry. I chose Red Velvet and he went to his brother’s house to borrow a cake pan (seriously, I don’t know what happened to ours but it seems to have vanished). Jeremy wanted to bake me a pretty, round cake and realized that that just wasn’t going to happen unless he went back to the store and bought a round pan since his brother only had a rectangular pan.
At midnight, I got clever and I said “Why don’t we just make cupcakes instead?” and he seemed kind of sad – let down by the fact that he wanted to do better for me (he’s so sweet sometimes). I was totally down for making cupcakes. I think they are more fun to eat anyways! So I made them… because I kind of took over. Oops.
(I will never stop sharing this. NSFW.)
The cupcakes turned out amazing (certainly better than a couple of years ago when I made myself that ridiculous TARDIS cake).
I sobbed uncontrollably
Wait, what? I don’t know where it came from or why it was brought up. I just know that in the middle of making cupcakes, I had a breakdown and I started crying. Let me explain.
When Jeremy and I decided that we wanted to have a baby, I told him that we had until I was 35 years old – at which point I would no longer try. My reasoning for this is that my health isn’t particularly stellar to begin with, and I’m not sure I could withstand pregnancy and delivery at that point. I realize plenty of women have beautiful, healthy children well into their 40’s and I think that’s so fantastic. I just don’t see it as an option for me.
Turning 31 means I lost a year. A whole year out of the 5 I gave us is gone – and it went by far too easily. It was only last summer I started trying to get my PCOS under control and we started actively trying a year ago. So now there are only 4 years left and I already don’t feel particularly optimistic.
I “opened” presents
A week before my birthday, I started asking Jeremy what he’d gotten for me for my birthday. Yeah he pretty much hadn’t bought me anything at all (which also means that he bought me nothing from my birthday wish list).
I already mentioned my gifts on Funko Friday, but Jeremy bought the entire set of the most recent line of Doctor Who Funko Pop for me. Which means between these and the Labyrinth Funko I picked up from my pre-order… I am in desperate need of another bookshelf in my office. Oops! Haha
Not gonna lie. I kind of thought Jeremy was going to propose. More on that later…
I Took a Long Nap
I spent a lot of my birthday sleeping because we had plans that evening that I knew would keep us out relatively late (or what is late for me these days). I wanted to be sure I was well-rested and able to stay awake!
Jeremy mostly played video games and let me have the bed to myself.
I Saw Labyrinth in Theater!
A few days before my birthday I realized that Jeremy would actually be home for my big day and that meant we could go to see Labyrinth in theater for the 30th anniversary celebration. I immediately bought tickets online and invited all of my friends to come (50 people. I didn’t even realize I knew 50 people locally!)
Labyrinth has been my favorite movie for my entire life. Yes it’s cheesy and there’s that whole massive amount of glitter and Bowie bulge thing going on… but I don’t care. It’s my favorite and you can’t tell me otherwise. So getting to finally see Labyrinth on the big screen, surrounded by other adoring fans? Opportunity of a lifetime!
Well, none of my friends came. Most people RSVP’d as ‘No’ almost immediately. I get it… it was a Wednesday evening and basically everyone I know has one of those job things and had to be at work. But that was okay! I had Jeremy with me and I was just there to enjoy the movie.
But then I got sad in the theater, and I cried…
A lot of people brought their children to see the movie. It was then that I realized that I’d never really gotten to share the magic of Labyrinth with my daughter Hailey… and that there wouldn’t be another opportunity to experience it with her like this again while she’s still a kid. Even if it happens again in another 10 years – she’ll be an adult by then and it won’t be the same.
I Ate at one of my favorite places
There’s a place around here called Smokey Bones. They specialize in BBQ really, but they also have the best steak I have ever had in my life. Seriously, there is ONE steak on their menu. It’s not at all what they are known for, and yet I think it’s the best thing they make.
Two of Jeremy’s brothers went with us to Smokey Bones and I ordered my wonderful Medium-cooked steak with a side of fire roasted corn and loaded Mac N Cheese (because fuck veggies… it’s my birthday). I waited with anticipation as I drank my strawberry sangria and cut up with the boys.
Well, my steak was well done (thus, totally ruined). It still tasted good… it was just kind of dry and sad. I was too tired to ask them to re-do it so I just let it be and I ate it. Blah
Jeremy Did not propose
This is the third time this year that I have set myself up for a proposal that would never come. I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself. I know Jeremy very well. He isn’t a romantic sort of guy. He’s thoughtful… but not romantic.
And yet I was convinced he was going to propose to me when we closed on the house. I was absolutely sure he would do it on our anniversary. And I was determined he would get down on one knee for my birthday.
No. Nope. Think again missy.
I Still had a good birthday
I realize that it sounds like my day was kind of rough what with all the crying, overcooked meat, and lack of marriage proposal… but overall, I think I had a nice birthday. I’ve definitely had a lot worse… and at least this one left me still feeling loved and incredibly lucky to be 31.
Answer True These Questions Two:
1. What do you want to do for your next birthday?
2. What’s the best birthday gift you’ve ever received?