I’m not sure where my week went. I felt like I struggled to keep up with my blogging goals and life in general. Sorry about that. I’m human… I think. I have a few confessions this week. I’m really hoping that you can relate.
I was just telling my manager at work about how I feel like I don’t have time to do all of the things I want to do after work. I feel like I’m having to sacrifice things to do other things. Do you ever feel as if you are doing a mediocre job on a dozen things rather than an amazing job on one? That’s where I am right now and I fear it’s actually affecting my job performance at work.
It’s a little better now than it was a couple of weeks ago. At first, I felt distracted more than anything. I was having trouble focusing at work because I was so excited about getting home to work on re-building my blog. I still feel that same urgency and excitement, but I also realized it was causing me a sort of stress at work that I was putting on myself. I love my job. I need my job. I’m very lucky to have that job. And so, I smarted up and tried to stop dwelling on my blog so much.
I think it’ll get easier in time. Ugh. I hope it does anyways. I can only assume that once I have established myself and feel less inclined to obsessively check stats and learn to use certain social media outlets I’m simply not accustomed to using regularly… it’ll just somehow get easier. Please tell me it gets easier?
I’m juggling trying to keep up with my personal Facebook Timeline while also posting interesting, relevant and funny things to my Kimi Who Facebook Page. I’m trying to keep up with Twitter, which I don’t normally use because I’ve never really liked the platform. And I feel like I haven’t used Instagram as much this week because I am having a love/hate relationship with the camera on my Galaxy S3 – which is feeling very sub par in the picture department as of late.
In fact, I borrowed a camera from my best friend Keegan earlier this week in hopes of taking better quality pictures for my blog. I see so many blogs with these beautiful pictures that my little smart phone simply cannot manage. Since I just cannot afford to buy an expensive, new camera at this time since I am still working on saving for a memorial tattoo I’m getting later this month I decided I would take Keegan up on his offer to borrow his camera for a bit.
Little did I know that the camera he was offering to let me borrow was this huge, Nikon DX D3000. Geez ya’ll… I honestly haven’t the faintest clue how to use this thing. Yeah, okay… it has a sort of point and shoot option on it but frankly, I feel like a fumbling idiot with this thing. I have become far too accustomed to touch screens and using a big screen rather than a viewfinder that it took me a few minutes to understand that I had to actually use it like a regular camera.
There’s like… a gazillion buttons and settings. I’m terrified that I am going to break this thing and unless I can figure it out in a week or two from some tutorials a friend sent to me, I think I’ll be giving it back. I’m not sure I was meant for a big, fancy camera.
In other news…
My friends Tina and Daniel got married yesterday. Congrats again to them both! I am so very excited for them. Last Wednesday, I got a pedicure with Tina in prep for her wedding followed by a chick flick and way too much pizza.
I feel like a bad friend. I had this grand idea of what I wanted to get for Tina as a wedding gift – I’ve had it in mind for months. For a while, I had to wait due to funds. I may get to do it yet, but now it’s not so much about money. Now… I just do not have the time! I get busy and I forget to start working on the general scheme of it and next thing I know, it’s too late. At this rate, it’ll be a wedding anniversary gift.
I want so badly to do nice things for people because so many wonderful things were done by others to get me this far in life. But I’m not quite there, ya know? I feel like the stage I’m at means asking much, much less of others but that I’m maybe not ready to repay all of the favors and kindness no matter how badly I want to. If my friends actually read this: I really hope you know that I do sincerely care and I AM trying!
Time is my culprit. It’s my biggest life obstacle by far. I don’t even work that much. Seriously, I work 35 hours per week. That said, I am at my place of employment an average 40-42 hours per week if you count me arriving early in most cases, the break time, and if I stay after while waiting for Jeremy to pick me up. This doesn’t include the fact that I get up an average of 1-2 hours every day before work in order to get ready and call a cab on the days I don’t have transportation to work – since I do not own a car and do not drive. On a regular week, that means I have spent 46-48 hours per week on my job in some way.
I sleep an average of 8 hours per night. Okay fine… I am in bed an average of 8 hours per night. That’s about 56 hours + up to 48 hours spend on job related things brings me to 104 hours. That means every week, I have 64 hours of “free time”. Which begs the question Where does all of my time go!? I have more free time than I have work time. I should have plenty of time then to achieve so many things but somehow, I don’t. I really need to find a way to increase productivity and get more done outside of work.
For a girl who works on watches for a living, you’d think I would have a better handle of time. Hur hur.
So that’s it for my week. My birthday is this weekend, so I have Friday, Saturday and Sunday off from work. Jeremy leaves to go out of town next Friday to see his family and then to Tennessee for job training stuff. Chaos. Complete chaos.
How do you do it? How do you manage your time? Do you have a full time job in addition to blogging? Give me all of your secrets!